You're not alone in feeling this.
grief
Source: NHS / Cruse Bereavement Care
The reality
Grief is the natural, heavy process of adjusting to a loss. It has no timetable and isn't linear — it comes in waves.
A word of kindness
There is no wrong way to grieve, and no clock on it. However long it takes, however it comes and goes — that's yours, and it's valid.
Something you could try right now
There's no wrong way to grieve and no clock on it. If it helps, say their name out loud today, or write them a line. Waves pass. Be as kind to yourself as you'd be to a friend going through this.
Nothing here is a diagnosis or therapy. Figures are indicative population estimates from public health bodies — not advice about you.